Almost two years ago I met a man who I knew early on would become very important to me. We both carry a lot of baggage and have been slowly finding our way around having a relationship. He knows that at times I have been frustrated by this but there have been times that I have been grateful for the slowness. We both rushed into our marriage relationships despite having some reservations and so we are both cautious about sharing our lives and our hearts.

Our first date was the best first date I’d been on, followed very quickly by a brilliant second date. I knew after that that he’d be a big deal to me and I was scared, I was also intrigued. I wanted to know everything about him. It takes him a while to tell me things, but I think that’s because he’s scared too. I’m well aware that he decided to take a risk with his heart on me, and me with him. We have both found this very difficult but I for one think it’s been worth it.

I didn’t realise how scared I was until I met him and if I’m honest I’m still petrified of getting my heart broken. I’ve put up some walls and so has he. I’ve gone against my mind and followed my heart because I think he’s worth it.

My favourite thing about him is what a good Dad he is. He always does what’s right for his children and I envy them on behalf of my own children sometimes. My second favourite thing about him is his desire to improve himself. He never thinks he’s good enough or done enough and because of that he’s full of ambition.

Hes taken me to amazing places and we’ve had fun along the way. I’d really like to see a bit more of the world with him.

Ive found it difficult to tell him how I feel and he has too. I’m messed up and so is he. In lots of ways we are the same and in many ways we are different, I think that makes us interesting.

There have been times when things have been hard and because of my insecurities and his, I thought he’d gone. Like a couple of magnets we’ve been playing a game of attraction and opposition but have found a way back.

I’d like us to have a future together.

I hope he feels the same.